Let GOD Have this one!

Good Evening Friends,

My dinner is in the oven and my kitchen is cleaned up so I decided that I would sit down and see if any inspiration came to mind. I hopped on Facebook and saw the above quote and thought BINGO!

As a person who has suffered many years from anxiety and depression I have been robbed of many good days, because I was so worried about the next thing on the list, the next moment, the next invite, the next, the next, the next....

I used to be so worried about everything that faced me and that was coming next that I could hardly function. Now this may surprise some of you, because I have learned to cope with the anxiety. But there were times were it was so bad it was exhausting just trying to leave me house to go to work. What if.... what if... what if....

I want to go hang out with this group, but what if there are people there I don't know, what if I say something stupid, what if.... what if... what if...

Then as I got older and was able to identify my anxiety (anticipatory anxiety) and what it was causing it, I was able to speak up to my closest friends, and they were able to "talk me into" going out. Probably never knowing how uncomfortable I was, and how tiring it was to be out. Don't get me wrong, I more often than not enjoyed myself, but it was hard. Friends and family got to the point where they would explain to me what the plans were, where we were going, who would be there, and give me as much details as they could before asking me if I would do something, because they knew that would lesson the stress.

Then about 5 years ago I gave up my anxiety (yes I still suffer from him, sometimes severely -- but not ask often) I gave it to GOD! He has almost removed all of the anxiety in my life, I personally think he has left some of it there to remind me how far I have come.

I can now "push" myself to do things that I never would have been able to do before. I can "force" myself to take the next step.

So why am I telling you all this? Well _____ reasons.
1. Anxiety of any kind is real! It is not just in someones head. It is throughout their body and they can't just get over it. Don't treat them that way, it just makes it worse, and then they feel inadequate on top of dealing with being worried and anxious.

2. If you or someone you know is suffering from anxiety or is a worrier -- pray for them. Do what ever you can to let them know it is okay. Help calm them. You might just turn into their strength buddy.

3. GOD can take it away! Ask him! -- But you have to be willing to give it to him to take away. I used to ask him to take it, but then hung onto it as a security blanket.

Don't loose anymore of your good days worrying about what is going to come next. Good stuff happens to use every day, focus on that and let the rest worry about itself.

Have a good night readers!

Time In Between

(Song: Time In Between by Francesca Battistelli -- video pulled from youtube)

Good afternoon, READERS

As I was driving home tonight I began thinking of all the things that have been going on inside my head the last few weeks/months... whatever.

Then the above song came on, and I instantly started praising GOD for all of the things he has blessed with me. It seems like every song that has been put in front of me lately is there to remind me of GOD and all that he has done for me, for us, for everyone! (I don't get how people would not want to have a relationship with GOD)

I've been attending Bible study for the past few months. I am so excited about this. Ever since I moved home I have been praying for an opportunity to come up like this. I have deeply missed my students from my old church and old friends. Lately in our studies we have been talking about the fruits of the spirit and faith. We have been talking a lot about faith.

Since the attending the study my prayers have even changed. From GOD PLEASE, to GOD THANK YOU for what you are about to do. THANK YOU for what you have already done. THANK YOU for what you have given me. I know that if we ask something in GOD's name we will receive it. It may not be packaged the way that we thought it should be, and it more than likely will not be delivered when we think it should be but he will give it to us. (this is so hard to deal with sometimes)

This has been proven to us time and time again in the Bible. If we dig deep into our Bibles, and we study his word. Read the stories and listen two what he has told others. We must have FAITH.

One thing I have struggled with over the past month is not so much having a strong faith, but truly giving something to GOD and letting him keep it. I want to keep picking it back up. The Devil likes to use this as well to bring me down. Especially when I am on the mountain top with God. Last night I had some time to silently pray to God, and I had the over powering sense to humble myself before the LORD and go to my knees in prayer. I'm not telling you this to brag about what I did. I'm telling you this because the greatest things in my life have come to me when I have humbled myself to the LORD! When I have gotten down on my knees and given whatever it is to GOD sincerely!

So let's take a moment and thank GOD for his time in between that he was able to perform miracles and give us examples of faith to follow. Thank GOD for what has done for you, and what he will be doing for you. Make sure to praise GOD in all circumstances good and bad.

Friends I am also going to ask that if you read this, you pray for me! GOD has been working in my life so much, and I am so thankful. Pray that I am able to leave the needs at his feet, and allow them to stay there! Allow GOD to take care of those needs.

Have a good evening!


PS -- I'm just a person who likes to write. I will never apologize for my thoughts, or if they are all over the place. This is my spot to ramble! I hope you enjoyed it.

*******SIDE NOTE*******

If you don't like mushy stuff.... stop reading NOW!!

So the other night I caught my husband reading my blogs. This was really funny and flattering to me all the same time. I popped off and made a comment like "you are only reading them to see if I was saying anything about you".

His response "I was kind of hurt that you weren't"

I warned you to quit reading!

So this little section is a dedication to my husband (let's see if he reads this). He is so wonderful to me! I don't have any complaints. Anyone who truly knows us, knows that we were placed in each others paths by no one other than GOD. If it wasn't for GOD we wouldn't even know each other. GOD gave us each struggles before we met so that we would truly appreciate the life partner that he gave us. My husband is my ROCK. He is the one that I know will comfort me when I need comfort but tell me to suck it up when I need to. We have an unbreakable love, and a deep understanding for each other.

I am so thankful every day that I have him. Though he won't admit it, he is glad he has me! Where you get one of us you normally get the other!

Next week I will come up with a funny story about him in my blog! We will show him not to want to be written about! LOL

Have a great weekend readers!